Why am I showering at 2:31AM? Oh right.. Now I remember. FML.
After breaking up, Alaina and I talked and decided it would be in our best interest to get back together and at the very least meet each other before we made such a rash decision. It was not a bad breakup in any way, we didn’t breakup over a fight, and we were on good terms so I will leave it at that. She realized she didn’t want me out of her life and I’m extremely glad she did, because I didn’t want her out of mine either. I love her and while we can fight over some pretty stupid shit, we always make it through and figure it out.
LDR’s are hard as fuck and you have to be extremely strong to make it through. We’ve made it 6 months and we have just over a month until we finally meet each other in person. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for this girl, my feelings for her are indescribable and I love her with all of my being. When I was getting anons saying there are plenty of other fish in the sea, all I could think was “She was my damn sea” and there’s no one else I wanted.. Just her.
If we meet and it doesn’t workout then it just wasn’t meant to be obviously. And that’s fine but at least we really gave it an effort and tried. But I have a feeling there will be a happy ending to our little fairytale. Everything happens for a reason and hopefully it’s a damn good one.
ps, thanks to everyone who was there for me when I was down and talked to me, it really meant the world to me.
So a lot of people think that the feelings of lust and love are simply chemical reactions submerging your brain with those ‘feel good’ hormones. Realistically, though this is true biologically speaking, it would mean you could love and want any compatible mate out there. But I love and want you. Knowing there are chemicals and hormones in my body that contribute to that feeling does not write it off or make it less extraordinary at all. My heart tells my body ‘This is for her, and only her’. I’d say that’s pretty damn spectacular.